Blogging

About two weeks ago, I decided that November was going to be the month to revive the blog. I have had very successful NaBloPoMos (national blog posting month) in the past and really have been wanting to get back in the habit of documenting the goings on of our family. Like with everything, there must be opposition, and the past two weeks have provided that via a last minute trip to help family. Before I flew out ten days ago, I had started a nice list of what to blog about in November (I can't stop obsessing about how I need to post about Liam's first birthday before I post about his second but the thought of posting a month of year-old events is frustrating). Returning to the life I love one week later (rather than the planned on 48 hours), I can't find the list and am having a hard time finding the energy to post. There are so many things weighing on my mind that I'm not ready (and might not ever be ready) to put out there on the world wide web.  I am exhausted spiritually, mentally and physically.

This virtual world we live in is amazing. I love being able to keep caught up with friends and to be able to "see" people from the many phases of my life. However, right now, it feels so superficial. I had a heart-breaking, gut-wrenching week last week and everything else seems so trivial. I am at the same time filled with gratitude for the life I have and anxious about writing it down because life and love are so fragile. I want to document how awesome my life is, but don't want to take it for granted. 

I am going to blog every day in November. Yes, I missed the first. I could have changed the time on the post that was just after midnight on the second, but I didn't. I did come back today. That's a good thing.